I want to be the Moon

so there's this song by my second favorite Christian rock band EVER (to Newsboys of course), Paul Colman Trio (unfortunately disbanded, but now Paul Colman plays for Newsboys so I'm happy) called "Sun-Stars-Moon" that I've been thinking about a lot lately and wanting to share with people...so I am. Here are the lyrics to the chorus:

I want to be the Moon, It reflects the Sun

don't want to be the Star, that shines on everyone

I want to be with you, cause you're the only one

who heals my lonely soul

isn't that beautiful? Aren't we all here to reflect God's love and glory? Sometimes aren't we or someone we know the Stars that shines over everyone thinking that they're the salt of the earth? but that's not right, even if we're the lonely moon we can only be healed through reflecting God in our lives.

there's two things I'd like to touch on-

One is that today I was reading my bible and catching up on my devotions (sorry mom, i'm a few days behind) and I was supposed to be reading Psalm 119:25-32, but I got distracted by..well..my name being a few stanzas earlier. Did you know Beth is the second letter in the Hebrew alphabet? I like that, because it puts me second, and I like being second (to the Sun/Son?)(i.e. Beth2) anyway, here's what it says (NLT):

Beth

How can a young person stay pure?

By obeying your word.

I have tried hard to find you-

don't let me wander from your commands.

I have hidden your word in my heart,

that I might not sin against you.

I praise you, O Lord;

teach me your decrees.

I have recited aloud

all the regulations you have given us.

I have rejoiced in your laws

as much as in riches.

I will study your commandments

and reflect on your ways.

I will delight in your decrees

and not forget your word. (Psalm 119:9-16 NLT)

So what to read into this? I think something that attracts me to this passage is that it talks about imperfections and overcoming them. Even in my tween years I always gravitated towards the verses that said "stuff was bad, but God is awesome so as long as I trust in Him it's all good" (ish). Last night I got to listen in on my friends discussing their devotional and they had a discussion about the difference between confession and repentance. do you know it? I thought I did..but then I thought about it and realized I had to ask. They very clearly explained that confessing is admitting you have a problem, but repenting is the next step where you fix the problem. I like this passage because it's about preparing yourself for what should happen in your spiritual life should you stumble, but it also works retrospectively to bring you back to God and help you confess and repent by turning your life back to Him.

so the second (I know, that was long, I'll keep this brief), is that there is a Star in my life that has been burning too brightly for their own good lately. They were a very dear friend of mine until recently when they decided to be good friends with one person to the exclusion of all others. It's very sad for me when I lose friends, for whatever reason, and very frustrating and painful when they have no desire to try to salvage our friendship. What is especially saddening about this situation is that they have recently really strengthened their relationship with God, which is great and I'm so SO happy and thankful, but our friendship was completely lacking in that aspect. So not only have I lost a friend but I've lost a friend that I could talk about God and grow in our faiths with. I have also noticed lately that they go out of their way to make themselves look good, even with as little of things as gestures at inappropriate times or emphaticness where it's unnecessary, but most especially showing off their talents to make other people look bad. 

please pray for them and for me.

I pray we all can be the Moon and reflect the Son